I Thought My Spirit Guides Were Taking Away My Freedom.

They were actually leading me toward it.

The transition from psychic to healer wasn’t easy. In fact, I resisted it long before I ever admitted it.

About six years before I made the transition, I was sitting in my living room watching the news when a story came on about a woman doing energy healing. I remember being fascinated. Not because I wanted to become a healer, and not because I’d already spent years taking energy healing classes. I was fascinated because I couldn’t believe energy healing had made the evening news. I remember thinking, “Wow… things really have changed.”

By that point, I’d already spent years studying healing. I’d learned multiple healing modalities, and people would occasionally ask me about Reiki. The question usually wasn’t how it worked. The question was whether it was the devil’s work.

I was raised as one of Jehovah’s Witnesses. I was taught to stay away from anything supernatural as it was demonic. Energy work. We were told it was New Age instead of what much of it actually is… ancient Eastern healing that has been practiced for thousands of years. New Age, a label that’s often used in the West to discredit something before anyone has the chance to understand it. It’s no different than calling someone a conspiracy theorist before they’ve even had the opportunity to explain what they believe. Once the label is there, many people stop listening.

So believe me when I say there was a level of pleasant surprise watching that news story. But there wasn’t a part of me thinking, “That’s what I want to do.” Not even close.

Then I heard my guides say something so simple I’ve never forgotten.

“You’ll be doing this work in the future.”

My response was immediate.

“No, I won’t.”

Most people tell me they’d love to have guidance that clear. They wish someone would simply tell them what they’re supposed to do with their lives. I didn’t.

I wanted proof that I could create my own life. I wanted to know my future wasn’t already written. If I couldn’t determine my own destiny, then I was screwed. Bottom line. My life had been hard from the very beginning. Healing was my only hope. Healing myself so I could create the life I wanted, not being told what I had to do or feeling like my free will had somehow been taken away.

Years later, I realized something that changed everything. I wasn’t resisting becoming a healer. I was resisting what I thought becoming a healer meant. It was my own expectation. Maybe I had chosen this before I was born. That’s always possible. Maybe it was part of a divine purpose. I believed my guides were taking away my freedom when they were actually leading me toward it. What I interpreted as losing my ability to choose was really an invitation to choose what my soul had somehow chosen.

That experience completely changed how I looked at resistance.

One of the biggest breakthroughs I’ve witnessed in thousands of healing sessions has very little to do with changing someone’s circumstances. It has everything to do with changing the filter through which they see them. Our expectations become the filter through which we interpret our lives. We hear something, assign meaning to it, and then react to the meaning we’ve created. Most of the time, we aren’t responding to reality. We’re responding to our interpretation of reality.

I’ve watched people clear one fear, one belief, one expectation, and suddenly life looks completely different. Their relationships change. Their opportunities change. There money changes. Their choices change. Even the way other people respond to them changes. Nothing outside of them changed first. They did.

When I look back at my own resistance, I don’t see someone fighting her purpose anymore. I see someone trying to protect herself from a future she was afraid of repeating. My fear wasn’t protecting me from becoming a healer. It was protecting me from what I imagined becoming a healer would cost me.

So let me leave you with a question.

What are you resisting?

If it’s something positive, something healthy, or something that could lead to a new adventure, maybe your resistance isn’t your intuition.

Maybe it’s fear.

And maybe, just maybe, it’s worth saying yes before you automatically say no.